Fitting in
This past weekend, a few people that I graduated from High School with decided to get together and have dinner since we had not seen each other in almost 12 years. None of attended our 10 year reunion so we thought that this would be a lot of fun. I was not nervous at all, high school was not stressful for me. I don't look back on it and have any anxiety or regrets, to be completely honest, I don't think about it at all. I was very busy, involved in every sport or extra curricular activity I could find...but that is not surprising, that is how I am still. Idle time is my personal demon, I am no good with it. I need to stay busy. We all got to talking about our lives growing up, people were recalling memories of all of the crazy things they did as teenagers and I just sat there and had no input, I could not relate at all. Several of the girls commented on what a "good" girl I was, and they all wanted to know why I never went out with them to the parties on the weekend, etc. I am not one to beat around the bush so I told them exactly why...I just didn't fit in. I was a cheerleader, but didn't fit the mold of a girly girl so I didn't fit in there. I was a jock, but was a little too girly to fit in there. I was all of these things, but never really quite fit in. My life is still that way...I am just a little bit different than most people. You know what though, I accept it. I love who I am. I don't consider it a flaw...although some people do. I still struggle with fitting in, I don't fit in with most of the ladies at work because I refuse to gossip. I don't have a membership to the mommy club yet so I don't fit in with the neighborhood gals...etc. You get the picture. I realize that I totally digressed from Saturday night. I did walk away from that meeting elated that I have finally accepted who I am. I am unique, I am quirky...but that is how my Maker made me. He made me a chameleon, I can comfortably hang out with just about every group I run across. I can relate to people who don't quite fit in, and if I can relate, I can communicate with them, and if I can communicate with them I can let them know how much God loves them. THAT is where I fit in. To be honest, there is really no where else I'd rather be. :)
Thought for the day: "God knows our situation; He will not judge us as if we had no difficulties to overcome. What matters is the sincerity and perseverance of our will to
overcome them." C.S. Lewis
posted by Pixie @ 6:22 AM
7 comments
7 Comments:
Great post- you're open where most people are closed off and safe.
Pixie,
I understand exactly how you feel. I am like a chameloen too. I can fit with any group. Except that in Highschool I am shy and quiet.
I only really give much thought about fitting in when I started to train seriously last year. The time squeeze to train and all that jazz made me conscious more of who I want to spend my time with and why.
..i came across a quote a while back. It goes something like this
'If my maker is satisfy with me, so will I.'
Too true.
I was a marching band geek in High School, talk about fitting in. But I think we all find our place in the world eventually and make peace with that. Even now I think I feel awkward when I'm not around endurance athletes. Nice post.
Not fitting in can be a really good thing. I'm glad that you are happy with who you are - it sounds like you're an awesome person. I can relate with the not fitting in, but you have to be you. That's what's most important. It sounds like God can use you with a variety of people - that's awesome!
Nice post. I can relate to a lot of what you wrote. Thanks for sharing.
Kewl post - if ol' nitrox had a daughter I would be hoping that she turned out just the way you did. :) In fact, I would be very proud if my two boys turn out like you, except more of the "jock" and less of the "girlie" bit. :D
Having read the comments, I found that I am quite like cliff in school. Sometimes too much of a chameloen - good way to get popular but a poor way to find oneself.
Awesome post...and I love that quote.
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